Monday, December 24, 2007

deliverance

oh my dears! it is good news, the best possible news, on a day i thought for certain none could come. this morning shortly after 9 am, i spoke on the phone with martha (dr. naik was not in today, i knew that was the case as she told me her holiday schedule last week) and she was able to pull up the pathology report.

clear margins, at last.

finally, the cancer has been cut out. i was able to have my mom by my side when i heard the news. we cried together. i realize only now, the extent to which i have been holding my breath. the sigh of relief is huge. collectively, amongst all the followers of my story, it must be a sigh heard around the world. i can hardly take it in, truth to be told. what a weight lifted!

i am not much of a christmas celebrator, but i sure feel like celebrating now! a sweet elf that brought me some champagne last week must have had a good feeling about this.

i am ready to drink a toast to clear margins.
and dear friends.
and an excellent surgeon.

oh, thank-you, thank-you, thank-you, universe, for delivering this news.

and thank-you, dear friends near and far, for holding me so close in your thoughts these weeks. i have felt surrounded by light and love. your support is palpable and priceless.

of course, this is far from the end of the story, but it is the end of this particular chapter. i'll be writing here again soon, as there are many thoughts i've been processing, but have been to distracted too write. mom is on a plane back home and i am going to continue to rest this whole week.

bless you all for being here. may your holiday be warm and bright.

9 comments:

Maryam in Marrakesh said...

Oh thank God! Oh Hooray! Oh happy, happy day! I am just so thrilled and so very relieved.

Clear margins. That sounds so very refreshing. It makes me think of Spring.

Merry Christmas, dear Tay.

Tay said...

thank-you so much, dearest Maryam. Your steady support and encouragement means so much to me. I showed my Mom the pictures of your guest house in progress and she said "someday you'll go there, I am sure of it"

I love to imagine myself on the roof terrace there, watching the star-filled night sky, with breast cancer behind me.

merry Christmas to you and your sweet family as well.

salmonpoetry said...

oh Tay, what wonderful news! and such perfect timing, may you truly relax and celebrate now. not the end of the road of course, but at least there should be no backtracking now and you can move forward in the new year with healing and the forward momentum of leaving the turnip behind.

yes, a sigh of relief heard around the world, no doubt. and a nice surprise for me to find, checking a frosting recipe online and clicking your tab, to see this true christmas gift delivered on time!

merry christmas, to you, your mom and mia.

Geetanjali said...

Finally........the news u have been waiting............u cant imagine the sigh of relief i felt here........

m very happy for u .........now look forward for a wonderful year in 2008, u are gonna rock........m sure of that.....

Wish u a merry christmas and a happy new year in advance............

Sondra said...

HALLELUIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CONTINUE THE CELEBRATION. CELEBRATE YOU STRENGTH AND ATTITUDE.
HEARS TO AN AMAZING NEW YEAR.
lOVE,
PS I GOT SOME FAIRY BELLS FOR CHRISTMAS, I AM SOOOO LUCKY.

cindy.aggson said...

CONGRATULATIONS Tay!!! I am filled with joy and relief for you! Must be all that "bad-ass" boot-wearing chutzpah - You are an amazing woman and an inspiration! Best wishes for a truly happy new year! - Cindy

studio olivine said...

Oh, I do not believe my eyes.
Glorious news. There are no words.
A beatiful day, dear Tay.

Meredith said...

That is such great news. I am hoping you'll be so well that you'll be in Michigan this summer (if that's where you want to be). I missed your jewelry this year.

michaelendo said...

I feel terrible and elated that the first I've heard of this is your clear report. I had no idea.

Belated merry Christmas and Happy new Year.

I only have one and one half years left, so see you soon.


Michael and Michele