i'm afraid this is the boring part i warned you about a couple of months ago. i am tired, very tired. and a bit depressed. i haven't a scrap of extra energy to give, so i'm becoming more silent, more solitary.
my parents were away in india for the past few weeks, it was so hard not being able to talk to my mom on the phone. but they are now safe and sound, back in snowy michigan, thank heavens. i cried a lake of saved up tears talking to mom yesterday. it felt good to let go of those tears, to release them in a safe space she held for me. even on the phone, it's there. what a blessing.
right now, i feel like the little engine that ran out of steam. 18 more treatments to go.