Friday, April 25, 2008

are the stars out tonight?

the stars have aligned for you, my readers of turnip! a rare thing has happened. i am having a great day and have time to write. yes, it's true. i have good days, too. seems like i've been writing posts on the rougher ones, however. sometimes i worry you all have drifted away and are no longer reading. i wonder if collectively you've just had to move on to more uplifting pastures.

there are no shortage of blogs to read, as you know!

but then, do i write for me? or do i write for you? turnip is really only useful in my life if i stick to the honest facts and feelings. so i guess knowing you are reading helps me come back again and again to tell my story.

so, um, are you out there? is it nice where you are? tell me about it, please.

can you tell i'm a little sassy today? what is that? someone is feeling better. nothing is really changed in my life, except my two sessions of colon hydrotherapy were very, er, productive. it was a brilliant detox and i think the emotional & mental release has been no less dramatic than the physical one. some of you are no doubt thinking that sounds good, but must have been uncomfortable. actually, for me it was lovely. a big ole zen pooping experience, one might say. it's quite amazing to get rid of toxic stuff that has been hanging around for possibly years.

after the second one i actually felt like the little pig in the movie babe (a great favorite of mine) when he stands in the sunshine and sings la la la la la la. it must be that feeling tired and shitty for so long means you are much more sensitive to feeling good. when it hits, like yesterday, watch out, baby!

today i got up at 7am, nearly 2 hours earlier than i've been managing of late. i jumped in the car and went to the lab to have blood drawn for some tests (had to be fasting) and was back home by 7:45. wow, i was falling over myself, eating breakfast before 8 and out the door walking to my studio before 10. yes, i said walking to my studio. which i now know the distance one-way is 1.5 miles, or 4,200 steps and took me 35 minutes.

it was actually quicker than i thought it would be and i am so proud of myself. i got alot accomplished at the studio. then came home this afternoon to start a batch of yogurt, eat a late lunch and take a little nap.

as i write this at 7pm, i just peeked at my pedometer and it said 9,435 steps!

now that is a good day. oh, and it wasn't rainy today, either. thanks, mother nature for giving me a break today, i really needed it.

16 comments:

Sondra said...

OK, OK! So you're feeling "SaSSY".
Good for you. It sounds like Tay's spring is finally here. Nothing like feeling "NEW" and "FRESH". All the ups and downs are your normal and we all have our own normals too. So We ARE out here. We ARE keeping you in our thoughts. We ARE sending LOVE.
Sondra

Tay said...

Yay! thanks, Sondra...hope it's lovely where you are as well! Sending happy spring thoughts your way today.

V Kingsley said...

I'm here - always. No time to write much though because I am on my way to ride my bike - YES I said ride my bike! What a roller coaster ride, huh? Much love to you....

Tay said...

V! riding your bike after the "ride" you've recently been on is a spring miracle! Hoorah for that! Yay for healing!

looking forward to hugs in 99 days at Michfest...

beadbabe49 said...

I always read but don't always have time to comment...maybe I'll just leave a little "stone" (o) next time so you'll know I've been by?

It's been a fabulous day at the coast, sunny and warm and not too windy...a day we've all needed to have!

rachel d said...

i'm here

glad you are a well and feeling sassy :)

i appreciate your honesty

Tay said...

beadbabe...thanks for stopping by and commenting...we had a much needed sunny day here in Portland, also. Glad you got yours on the coast. I bet it was fabulous!

rachel...thanks, dear. I hope art, life and school is going well. Sending you healing vibes.

venturegirl said...

So happy to hear that you are feeling better. I try to stop in every day and see how you are doing. It is usually during work hours (yes I know it is wrong)so I don't get a chance to post a comment. I have always thought that spring is a wonderful season for recovery ... as you continue to feel better you can see it translated into the new blooming flowers and trees and it all brings a certain sense of rebirth and hope. P-town is beautiful in spring - I hope the weather cooperates for you this year and your are able to get out and enjoy it. Much love, take care.

Maryam in Marrakesh said...

Tay, I have had a horrid day -- I felt downright depressed for several hours and am only snapping out of it. I also feel like I have a little slowdown on my blog in terms of readers and commenters. I think maybe everyone is out enjoying the great weather.

PS I want you to know that I got up this morning and ran laps and did exercise with my children. You were my inspiration.

Tay said...

Venturegirl~thankyou for coming by and commenting! Your warmth and love is always such a lift to me. I like that, "spring is a good season for recovery". Renewal in body and nature.

Dear Maryam~ I think you are right, blog traffic and comments are dropping off all over. I so understand the ups and downs, emotionally that can go with that. We bloggers are a particular breed, aren't we? *smile*

I hope the exercise helped with a rush of fresh energy and that your day tomorrow starts with a lighter heart. Thinking of you daily and sending love your way~ count on it!

Robyn said...

You are achieving something whether you are writing this for you or for us. It is cleansing for you and it is comfort for all those people who's lives have been touched by cancer. We are listening and we are thrilled that you are feeling sassy. Here's wishing you many more sassy days when you write and tell us how you feel.

Tay said...

thanks, Robyn! I appreciate you coming by and encouraging me.

crosspollination said...

Hi Tay,
Everyday can be a struggle, like you said. I've had my share of horrible days lately, and like Maryam, come to your blogs to find inspiration and a kindred spirit. I enjoy reading your sassy posts and your honest-about-life ones (poop happens!) equally. I am so hop-up-and-down happy that you are finding a more positive balance. I'm here reading :).
Hugs to you, Brooke

salmonpoetry said...

Hi Tay,
I'm still hanging in there with you, though spending much less time on the computer lately so not checking blogs (including my poor neglected own) as frequently.
I am so glad to hear that you are feeling better, for me exercise makes such a huge difference. And the sun and warmth, too of course. Keep enjoying your walks and happy working in your studio too.

Tay said...

Brooke...I think of you often in the beautiful NZ and wonder about where you'll go next, what you'll do. I am sure it's a difficult time and my heart goes out to you. Thanks for reading, it's great knowing I can provide some inspiration and escape for you...

dig-it-designs said...

Everyone's here! I only found your blog a couple days ago, but I'm now caught up to current day...and have been so inspired by your writings, your struggles, your honesty, your jewelry...everything. I know you think you're whining or being too down or whatever, but your words and thoughts and feelings are beneficial and will speak to someone reading them. Just like someone wrote "I needed that poem today" when you posted the Rumi poem--and you just thought you were postiing it for yourself. It's not always apparent that you might be touching someone or adding to someone else's journey, but just know that you are. Thank you, K.Tucker